public void catchUp{
It's sure been a very long time since i actually posted anything relevant on anything. lol. but i do have quite a few things to update. First off, the end of 2010 was absolutely horrid. just wanted to say that. I get that people think i'm not social or something, but i do want to be. i'd love to be invited to things and junk. I like being with people, but i guess people don't like being with me. oh well. but since about January 2nd, i've been feeling absolutely awesome. I've feel a lot better about everything and about my life. Granted I still don't have much "self-worth" and stuff related to that. I don't know why though, it just sort of just happened out of nowhere. Though i did get new clothes for myself on the 2nd (new pants, underwear, belt) and also i've been wearing a different hoodie than the one i was wearing. And i'm getting really better at my self image junk as well. lol. Though i do have to work on my social-ness. granted, since ppl don't invite me to junk, I have to FORCE myself out there. blugh. lol. I don't do that. I've never done that. Seriously. It's a miracle that i gained the friends i have. People try to suggest some tactics, but they worked horribly in the past. Now, granted, idk if they'll work NOW, in the present, but I'm still very hesitant to try these tactics once again. All i know, i've been failing to try to talk to new ppl. But i do know i have a harder time with girls..probably because i know i'll just be rejected--cuz i was rejected 98% of the time anyway. so why bother. YOU KNOW. i want to ask the girls that (probably won't read this) have rejected me and give the REAL answer you rejected me. Maybe that'll help as will help. Maybe that'll also change if i get a job? who knows. All i know i'm gonna try to send out more than 40 applications THIS week! starting wednesday probably. Anyway. I'm thinking of doing a very stupid action on fb soon. lol}
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